I used to think....

I used to think that I was a kind and patient person, one who didn't get upset very easily and just kind of went with the flow.  This was before two wonderful little ladies became part of my life.  Now I KNOW that I am neither patient or very kind.  This has really bothering me the last few months as I feel like all I do all day is stop fighting, entertain whining children, try to be consistent with a routine and clean up mess after mess after mess after mess.  So I am going to follow the example of a friend and turn my gripes and complaints about these days into a thankful post.

1.  I am thankful that I have two amazing daughters who love me and show me everyday, even if it is just one little kiss or hug or even a great job mom because I went pee in the toilet.

2.  I am thankful that all I have to get upset with is that they don't eat as much of their dinner as they should or that they throw all of their clothes out of the dresser again or that they dump all my nice lotion onto the floor and roll around in it.  I know that one day I will have a lot bigger issues to worry about.

3.  I am thankful that they want my constant and undivided attention.  One day, probably not that far away, I will not be front and center in their life.  I hope that I can build a solid relationship with them so that they will still want to come to me with their problems.

4.  I am thankful for the opportunities that come up and we can talk about Jesus and they get so excited.  It makes me want to try harder to live better and closer to my Savior so that I can be as excited as they are whenever they see a picture of Him or hear His name.

5.  I am thankful for the opportunities that I have to constantly be reminded about what is important in life.  It doesn't matter how clean my house is or what grades I get, but what matters is that my children know that I love them with all my heart.

6.  I am thankful that these girls show me where I can improve in my life.  It helps me to draw closer to Heavenly Father as I see my weaknesses and yearn to turn those into strengths.

7.  I am thankful for the blessing it is to be a mom.  My heart and capacity to love have truly grown because of it.

I read something the other day that said, "The days may be long, but the years will fly by." I am so happy for this time in my life to really focus on raising these two beautiful little girls.  I am so thankful that I have an incredibly loving and wonderful husband who helps me in every way he can....like taking the girls to the store with him so that I can have 15 minutes of quite time to write my thoughts out and calm down after a long and hard day.

As I finish this up I am sitting here weeping as I am reminded of how much these two little girls mean to me and I truly hope and pray that I can learn to have more patience and show them more love each and every day! I love you Keira and Jessy! :) Thank you for letting me be your mom!